Owen Christopher: February 2008

Well I normally don't do long write ups on here, but I know that there are a lot of people that are curious as to what has been going on with us over the last couple of months. There is reasoning to why I have not blogged in a while. But I am trying to get back to it. So I thought that I would sit down and share with you all just a little of what has been going on in our lives.
I don't want to spend to much time on this subject because it is something that is very sensitive to me and something that God is really still healing me emotionally and physically on daily. Not just me but my whole family. I firmly believe that when you go through something this emotional and this close to home that your whole family goes through it as well. So with that said, We found out on December 5th that I was pregnant. It was the happiest yet the most scariest and shocking thing I have ever gone through. We prayed that God would help me carry this pregnancy out and I knew in my mind that it was going to be a fight. But to our heartbreak on January 5th I miscarried. The Bible says that God gives and takes away. And that is what happened. I have to pray that God new something we didn't. I am trusting in that. Chris and I chose to only find out what we had to from the doctors. We did not want to know the details of size or anything else. We felt that in the realm of things that those things did not matter. God knows what is best for us and only He knows what is in the plans for our future. Whether that is to have more children or not, Chris, Owen and myself are still a family and we will keep doing what families do best, loving each other and helping Owen to be man that God intends for him to be. God is teaching me a lot through all of this. He speaks to me most when I am at my lowest and so through that He has showed me where He has called me to be. In 2001-2002 I went through a school called Master's Commission. It is a very intense discipleship program. Basically for a year of your life you are committed to God and seeking an intense relationship with Him as well as learning to serve those around you. The Pastor of the church and anyone else that you come into contact with. So with what I learned and what God has put in my heart to do I am now the personal assistant to my Pastor and his wife. It is the most enjoyable and satisfying thing I have yet to do in life besides being a mom and wife. It has me very very busy but happy. So enough about that. The other exciting things going on: Owen started his first day of Pre-School 2 weeks ago at a church in town and we really love the school. He only goes 2 days a week but he seems to really be enjoying it. We also signed him up for T-Ball and that will be starting soon. He has grown up A LOT these last couple of weeks not only in size finally but in maturity. He is needing mommy a lot less ( which is very sad to me) and needing daddy much much more. The actions of other are starting to effect his feelings for the first time which is hard as a parents you just want to go to whom ever is hurting his feelings or is being mean to him and give them a word or two but they are kids and they have to work it out themselves. Daddy's job and being gone so much is really starting to emotionally take a big toll on Owen here recently. But there again things are changing and he is turning 4 and Daddy is definitely starting to take the main roll. Part of me loves it and really enjoys watching them together, but it is hard to let go at the same time.
So that is a "little" of what is going on with us. Sorry it is so long I tried to keep it simple.

Just want to say thank you so much to all of you for you thoughts, prayers, phone calls, flowers, and most of all your love through this time. It has meant more to us than you will ever know and we pray that God will bless your family in return. I have really stuck to this word that God gave me through my prayer time to help me get through this all and I leave it in hopes that maybe it will help someone else through anything that they maybe going through.

We don't always know God's plans
But I will trust Him through ALL Things!!!